alliwantedwasyou.

please erase me
if you don't like what you see
my aching body
i give and you receive
i touch you when you sleep
are you still alive?
fetishize your beauty
the scars that you don't hide

am i bad enough?
am i dark enough?
didn't know i wanted to
turn into you

hey cool rock boy
what will you take from me?
cool rock boy
what will you leave me?
cool rock boy
what will you take from me?
nothing and everything

is this heaven or hell?
losing myself in you
a clean perfect line
is it what I want to do?
the world gives you everything
my poor baby
can i feed your pain?
resolve goes up in flames

do i sin enough?
did i say too much?
do my skin and bones
get in the way?

hey cool rock boy
what will you take from me?
cool rock boy
what will you leave me?
cool rock boy
what will you take from me?
nothing and everything

you're gonna hate me
you're gonna hate me
why do you hate me?
why do you hate me?

am i in heaven or in hell?
am i in heaven or in hell?
is this heaven? is it hell?
is this heaven? is it hell?
hey, cool rock boy...

off her fifth album beautiful creature released in 2000

another one.. back to back off beautiful creature

insert above from the concurrent 2000 release total system failure
both albums were released on may 16th ( day after my bday hehe )

juliana says of recording beautiful creature:
“i just went into the studio to record some demos and out came the songs for beautiful creature. it was a simple process. i love beautiful, catchy songs. this satisfied a part of me.”

as for juliana’s pony, those tracks were inspired by her seven-month stay in LA: “i love playing down and dirty rock n roll. it was a cathartic feeling. i had a lot to get off my chest. LA was inspiring in a perverse way. it almost is a ‘total system failure’ out there, and it will be soon. it’s a creepy, unnatural and disgusting place.”
wonder if she still feels that way.. loll

you called me from your kitchen
you talked to me but you wouldn't listen
you once had me on that floor
sweet memory
sweet lay your weight on me
don't want to pine my days away
but i miss your body

don't rush me i'm leaving
this cut is still bleeding
from the promise of your lies
i'll let go in good time

my heart is in the wrong place
i still want to kiss your mean face
maybe in a month i'll forgive you for the things you said
believe me
i hear you it's so clear
you hurt me you know where
standing with a package in the rain full of very heavy air

don't rush me i'm leaving
this wound is still bleeding
from the promise of more lies
i'll let go in good time
don't write me when you need me
don't call me when you want me
compassion, it's not your problem
i won't go out down that way
i'm getting over it

the sun just won't stop shining
i can't remember why i'm crying
it's in my eyes when i'm driving away
blinding me to you

don't rush me i'm leaving
this wound is still bleeding
from the promise of more lies
i'll let go in good time
don't write me when you need me
don't call me when you want me
compassion, it's not your problem
i won't go out down that way
i'm getting over it...
i'm getting over it....

juliana's pony lineup from juliana's twitter :)

music vid for "don't rush me" love all the effects on the chorus shots