you wait in the car on the side of the road
let me go and stand awhile
i want to know you're there, but i want to be alone
if only for a minute or two
i want to see what it feels like to be without you
i want to know the touch of my own skin
against the sun, against the wind
i walked out in a field, the grass was high
it brushed against my legs
i just stood and looked out at the open space
and a farm house out aways
and i wondered about the people who lived in it
and i wondered if they were happy and content
were there children and a man and a wife
did she love him and take her hair down at night
if i stray away too far from you
don't go and try to find me
it doesn't mean i don't love you
it doesn't mean i won't come back
and stay beside you
it only means I need a little time
to follow that unbroken line
to a place where the wild things grow
to a place where i used to always go
1. this past weekend was record store gay and there was a reissue of the harold and maude soundtrack, so my boss put it on and asked if i'd ever seen the movie, which i hadn't, and he was like u gotta. so fast forward to a couple days later, i found myself awake at 5am and couldn't go back to sleep. so finally around 6am i decided to put on a movie and figured fuck it time for harold and maude since it was fresh in my mind and i felt like something pretty light-hearted.. well turns out it made me cry lol but i really liked it. the scene in the end with "trouble" playing really got me :'(
2. but so then afterwards i realized that i heard the elliott smith cover in this movie thumbsucker that my coworker lent me to watch just a week or two ago !! he told me that the soundtrack was all originally supposed to be done by elliott smith, but that he died before they were done making the movie. and oddly enough today i found the soundtrack on cd at work !! lol so i was reading the liner notes and realized that the director was heavily inspired by harold and maude for the soundtrack, which is why he wanted it to be all elliott smith, mostly doing a number of covers ("trouble" and "thirteen" were the only ones finished for the soundtrack before elliott died, along with "let's get lost" from the posthumous from a basement on the hill)
3. anyways i woke up this morning and decided to listen to cat stevens while i got ready for work. i used to listen to him more, but an ex kinda ruined it for me in my head and i hadn't really come back around to it yet. but today i figured fuck it, it just felt right !! so then at work i decided i was gonna make a cat stevens post after finding the thumbsucker cd cuz i was losing my shit at all the parallels i had no idea about and just kinda subconsciously stumbled upon loll
4. thennn get thisssss... i was just looking up pics of cat stevens and reading a bit more about him then realized TODAY IS HIS BDAY !!!!! so ummm ya things are a little cosmic and weird cuz this is like the third time something like this has happened to me lol and i know sean said the odds are literally 1/365 (unless they're a leap year baby) but that's still kinda slim lol
5. so anyway, ya, hbd cat stevens <3
p.s. i canNOT believe i just found out today that "the first cut is the deepest" was originally a cat stevens song holy shit today has been crazy for me :0
thank u for reading
ok i gotta say, i do love the aesthetic (gayy i know lol) of this record. great art for the album and the singles (i'm a sucker for b&w pics) and a promo RAIN PONCHO cmon that's so good. love listening to this cd when it's raining.. i didn't know til i was working on this post that matthew sweet helped write "stumbling through the dark" and sang backup on a few tracks, along with chris stills (stephen stills' son) on a couple, and jakob dylan on one. sick? sick
here is the audio of a live set from june 30th, 2003 thanks to archive.org !! and here's a sick tumblr post made by the official jayhawks tumblr page (very active in 2021 ??? so sick lol highly recommend checking out their page) with some archival pics and studio notes from the rainy day music recording sessions with rick rubin : )
i never really had a problem
because of leaving
but everything reminds me of her
this evening
so if i seem a little out of it
sorry
but why should i lie
everything reminds me of her
the spin of the earth impaled a silhouette
of the sun on the steeple
and i gotta hear the same sermon all the time now
from you people
why are you staring into outer space
crying
just because you came across it and lost it
everything reminds me of her
everything reminds me of her
everything reminds me of her
it took a while for this record to kinda grow on me, still don't quite loveee it as a whole tbh, but man this song alone makes it worth it lol
as u guys can probably tell, i'm a huge lyrics guy and i'm such a sucker for an elliott love song, not the biggest fan of the songs about men with hats and canes and shit lmfao ( even tho i do also like "l.a." loll )
i love this songmeanings comment from user dredgfan77:
"perhaps elliott was challenging the mantra that it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. it seems fitting to me, i know the only reason i've ever looked into the stars i've been dreamily thinking of someone i wanted to be with. i don't know. i love this song though."
i have wondered about that sermon line myself, and idk i like this interpretation of it cuz i feel like i always have that debate with myself like damn was that shit worth this lol funny to think this guy has ONLY looked up at the stars to dream of lost love tho lolll like man u never just been staring at that shit thinking about how god damn small and insignificant we are ?? i'm like half/half on my reasons to stare into outer space
